So...if you've been wondering where I am...I just had surgery last week.

Don't panic...I'm fine They removed an ovarian cyst that was a little bigger than 10 cm in diameter - they said that it was taking up most of my abdominal cavity. Which actually explains a lot - my lack of appetite, etc. It was apparently pressing on my uterus, my stomach, and my bladder.

Yeah, if anyone was really interested

I just realized that people are still commenting on a poem that I wrote half a year ago...lol.

Well, don't worry, you guys As of five months ago (it's been a while, lol), the poem is meaningless...I have met the most amazing guy ever, who made me realize that the guys who inspired said poem were total jerks.

But...he'll be going into the Navy shortly after my birthday, and as of June, I won't see him much for the next six years...

But you know what? I feel very optimistic I think that he is truly The One, and that things are going to go very well

So...thanks for the support on the poem, guys, but I'm feeling great!

I you, Dexter. So so much.

Standing alone, beyond my reach
Sort of silence I'm scared to breach
You're always there, but never seen
Evanescent like you're in a dream
I move to touch you, but then you're gone
And I'm left to ask what I did wrong
I rarely ever see you smile
But when I do, I'm happy a while
Especially if it's directed at me
You give me a sense of calm I need
When I used to see you, I'd feel shy
But I look at you now and feel like I'll cry
Despite this all, I can't be mad
For the time I've known you, I feel glad
But now it seems you're confusing me
As time passes I start to see
Exactly what you mean to me
And I know that I should let you be
But if I let you go your way
Will you come back to me someday?
Or when I give in and let you go
Will that be the end of all I know?
Even now, it feels like I'm dying
So day by day, I'm just trying
To mentally prepare for when
It comes time to say "I'll miss you, my friend."

Yeah...just something I wrote.

*sigh*

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1 : Fall in love
2 : Marry
3 : Have kids ((God, what am I, a Sim?))

Three Names You Go By:
1 : Carley
2 : Lady (Lol, Jon)
3 : Kid (Sadly a lot more people than Jon call me kid)

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1 : Banjkazfan
2 : MackenzieMcKenzie
3 : Dormantly Banjkazfan

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1 : My eyes (Apparently that yellow around the centre is actually dormant brown genes O.o)
2 : My face (Yay, acne's starting to clear up!)
3 : My hair (The days it actually looks half-decent)

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1 : German
2 : Welsch
3 : English

Three Things That Scare You:
1 : Sudden loud noises
2 : The blue screen of death (on computers)
3 : Silent darkness (like with no stars or moon or anything)

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1 : Contact lenses
2 : iPod
3 : Computer

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1 : Sweatshirt that's way too big for me
2 : Scrub pants (so comfy!)
3 : My glasses (haven't been awake enough to put in contacts yet)

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1 : E-Type
2 : Nobuo Uematsu
3 : Indigo Girls

Three Of Your Favorite Songs: (currently)
1 : Will I See You Again - E-Type
2 : Every Heart (~Minna No Kimochi) - BOA
3 : Closer to Fine - Indigo Girls

Three Things You Want In A Relationship :
1 : A guy who isn't afraid to show me affection in front of other people
2 : Someone who can make me laugh
3 : Someone who will love me, regardless of when I'm upset or angry


Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order):
1 : Most things sound good to me in theory, but then I get halfway through and it's like "what the hell did I just start?!"
2 : I have no idea how I got into Dance Theatre, as I have next to no hand-eye coordination
3 : I like geometry. (Guess which one's the lie!)

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
1 : Smile
2 : Eyes
3 : Hands

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1 : Writing
2 : Acting
3 : Stage Crew

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
1 : Actor
2 : Anything with film (I love Comm Tech!)
3 : Since I'm less squeamish with blood now, maybe a nurse or something...

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1 : I want to go back to St. Maarten
2 : Japan
3 : Back to Cozumel!

Three Names You Like:
1 : Siobahn (pronounced Shi-VAHN)
2 : Riley/Rylie
3 : Jonas

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:
1 : I used to be able to out-belch the guys in elementary school, but I think the testosterone from puberty has let them bypass me again
2 : In a lot of cases, I'd like to just be "one of the guys" (stage crew, anyone?)
3 : I love video games

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:
1 : The only sport I'm really interested in is dancing
2 : Confession: I really do like clothes and shoes. HOWEVER, I don't care about labels like Abercrombie and Fitch or whatever; I just like what's comfortable
3 : I am WAY too over-emotional. It's scary

SEVEN People That I Would Like To See Take This Quiz Now:

Just take the thing...I don't know seven people I'd like to see take it XD

Did u know? B4 u go to sleep at night there is 1 person of the opposite sex thinking of u. They want to kiss u, They want to be with u they are always thinking about u b4 they go to sleep at night they are longing to be with u. This is all true not a fake if u repost this to in 5 mins the person that is longing to be with you will approach you in a month and ask u out or grab u and kiss u. But if you break this chain no1 will like u or ask u again for 5 years!!!

Post this in the next 200 seconds and you
WILL have
THE best day of your life THIS SATURDAY.
You're number one love Will either
kiss you,
ask you out,
or call you,
or text you,
or better....


Yay chain letters. I must be desperate if I'm doing them XDDD

[Edit] felt like doing this quiz again...

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.

Goes from lines 4 to 5...

"Holly called up their daily pod checklist on the plasma screen."

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What can you reach?

My pencil sharpener...?

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?

It was probably...uh, Wheel of Fortune XD

4. Without looking guess what time it is?

4:37

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?

4:27. DAMN!

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

Well, my music ((from the computer...)) and the traffic outside...

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?

Leaving my school...earlier this afternoon. Had just finished watching the musical people practice and talking to DJ for a bit.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?

My old journals.

9. What are you wearing?

A dumb look. Oh, and clothes.

10. Did you dream last night?

Not last night, but the night before. Weird as hell, too.

11. When did you last laugh?

Really, really laugh? At musical practice today; these guys are hysterical!

12. What are on the walls you are in?

Pictures, comics friends have drawn me, random paint splotches...

13. Seen anything weird lately?

OHMAHGOD I JUST REMEMBERED!!! Ryan ((not you, )) got out of his truck and started blaring the music, and he and Diane were jumping around to the music XD Was freaking hilarious to watch...then Ryan started yelling about how he just lost four pounds doing that.

14. What do you think of this quiz?

Kinda nosy, but fun XD

15. What was the last film you saw?

Huh...I dunno...I can't really remember. It had to be more recent than Superbad, but I don't think so...

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?

I'd probably give a good bit to my family XD But I'd probably go back to that store and buy those comfy jeans that cost FORTY TWO FREAKING BUCKS!!

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know?

Though I can't dance for crap, somehow I made it into my school's dance show. O.o

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt and politics, what would it be?

I don't know...I can't say that I'd change anything because really, what has happened in our world's history has shaped who we are...getting rid of anything would just screw up who we are now.

Well...if I had to pick, I'd get rid of Hitler and the Holocaust.

19. Do you like to dance?

Amazingly enough, I do have fun in our school's dance show XD I didn't get the dance for the longest time, but DJ helped me out, so all's good now

20. George Bush:

Hasn't done the best of jobs so far, but has had a pretty rough 8 years, I think. Same answer as last time.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?

Megan.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?

Joseph.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?

Nah...

24. What do you want God to say when you reach the pearly gates?

"Welcome home."

25. Tag six people who must also do this in THEIR journal:

Anyone who feels like it...I hate tags